Entropy and Flux

so my sister went over to my dad’s the other day (I don’t know why she thought this was a good idea). Apparently the woman living with my dad (the chick who is a drug addict who I really really dislike) is bad talking me. Which my sister told her off and told me all this to assure me she wouldn’t be talking like that around me or my sister. Basically she was saying things like I was jealous of her because my little brother loves her more than me. What ever! Who does he call daddy, mama AND a cute nickname he made up? ME. Who does he call by name? her. I woke up early every day before school to take care of him. I am the only one who can calm him down when he’s upset. But you no what matters more to me? The fact that I’d give up ANYTHING for that child and she wouldn’t give up anything for anyone. Which, she said “you guys hate me!” to my sister, and my sister said “you have to love someone to hate them” which basically means, we don’t even care about her (but she didn’t understand that) which I don’t care about her at all, all I care about is the fact that she’s putting my little brother in danger. And some day the other shoe is going to drop and my dad better kick her out of there and never let her back. I just wish I could adopt my brother and not have to worry every day if he’s going to get hurt or killed or taken away. Everyone even calls him my kid at this point, except dad that woman and possibly his grandparents. I thought things were going to get better once Jojo’s birth mom left. That dad would start to recover but boy was I wrong. I mean, I’m glad that Jojo doesn’t have to deal with his mom being neglectful and awful any more but now she has to deal with this other woman. I just want my baby to be safe and happy. I’m really hoping I’ll be able to bring him over to the apartment or our to play with my sister and her son more.